Wednesday, December 5, 2012




(Blurry photos at my friend's cabin)

My head is so full, I forget what I've been told the moment the speaking ends.  I can't seem to let go of weights I have no business carrying, weights that aren't my responsibility.  And they crush and paralyze, speaking lies of laziness and inadequacy.  It's scary how the dragons you thought were dead come back, or maybe they just had children you didn't know about.  The words that were said and the preasure that was placed now have ghosts that are harder to fight then they ever were before.  And I suppose that makes sense.  For they slip into your mind, pretending to be thoughts of your own, and they root so deep you're often unsure if you're fighting ghosts... or yourself.

1 comment:

Melee said...

"It's scary how the dragons you thought were dead come back, or maybe they just had children you didn't know about."

That is so brilliantly worded. Oh goodness. I so identify with your words. I'm sorry you're having these battles. :( I miss you, dear Clara, and I hope things start looking better soon? xxx