Tuesday, January 15, 2013

Have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language.  Don't search for answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them.  And the point is to live everything.  Live the question now.  Perhaps then, some day far into the future, you will gradually without noticing it, live your way into the answer. 
~ Rainer Maria Rilke

When I first found that quote I knew it was important and I knew I needed it and I knew it was right, but I couldn't understand it.  Not really.  How could one stand a room locked up with no notion of what's inside?  How can you love the questions without seeing the answer?  But God's helping me get there.  Always lurking in the back of my mind are the questions; what about this summer?  where will I be?  what will I be doing?  who will be with me? but His silent, sliver voice comes "not now, not yet" and the panic can subside.

Now isn't the time, let go, trust.  Over and over and over.  It will happen.  There will be strength enough for what ever is ahead.

I think of loving the question without the answer rather like poetry or wordless music, it holds such an abundance of meaning, you can't discover it all, you can't bleed it dry.  You just have to savor it, like a sunrise or a star-filled sky or a glass of wine.  It can't last forever, and the world might not get better when it ends, but you can soak in the moment as much as you can.  Quit trying to see in the dark and look at the heavens, there is the purpose and the beauty and the healing and the rest that can never be exhausted.

Maybe that's how one lives a question.


Merry said...

I need to read this. I've been so full of questions for ages.

Merry said...

Also, i love the picture! Is it yours?

Clara said...

Yes it is! It's of my bedroom/cave :) I'm so glad this could help a little.